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update! [24 Nov 2009|01:31am]
[ mood | excited ]

I know i rarely write in this journal anymore.. and to be honest, i am not really sure if anyone is going to read this..

i got a new email address.. so if you need it, leave me a comment and i'll send it your way..

also.. i got a new life.. or i am getting one i should say.. in two weeks i will be moving to long beach, california to start the next chapter in my life.. i'm finally leaving south florida.. the shitty people, the shitty memories, and the disgusting weather..

i am happier than i can remember being ever and i cannot wait to get to long beach! i've got an amazing man making the journey with me.. we are driving across the country together.. if we can make it through that, i am sure we can make it through anything haha..

i look the same these days.. just older and more tattooed i suppose.. i'll post a picture just in case you missed me a lot..

i hope all my friends are doing well and i really miss shani rodriguez.. and i don't believe in LJ CUT.. sorry.




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dear san francisco... [23 Feb 2009|10:14pm]
[ mood | excited ]

tomorrow.. i will be back in your arms..

oh how i love this city!!! i will not want to come "home"

san francisco Pictures, Images and Photos

san francisco Pictures, Images and Photos

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look and stuff [29 Sep 2008|11:13am]
So, now youre not there but your ghost still burns in the air
sometimes you have to take what you want
sometimes it works!
sometimes pacmac eats dollar signs
sometimes the sun gets in your eyes
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for tanya and anyone else that cares.. [25 Aug 2008|08:40pm]
[ mood | artistic ]

so life in florida is.. well.. its florida.. the people are old, rude and way too tan.. i don't fit in here.. i'm counting the days until i find the place i will be happiest..

i've been working nonstop.. between mac and doing makeup at the strip club.. trying to stay afloat and still manage to have some kind of life..

i am finally doing things for myself these days.. over the past years i have spent a good deal of time and money making (or attempting to make) other people happy.. and finally, its my turn.. i don't have a dumb boyfriend to spend all my money on.. so now i'm buying stuff for me..

currently i'm trying to find an old dyno bmx bike that i can sink some money into.. i've got some friends here that will help me fix it up, and will ride with me once its all set up.. craigslist has proven unsuccessful up to this point.. so if you are in the area and know of anyone trying to get rid of one, please let me know!

recently i got to spend time with some good friends of mine from asheville, nc.. they make me miss the south.. the REAL south.. not florida south.. these boys are hands down some of the sweetest, most handsome and funniest boys i've ever known.. i'd give anything to see their faces everyday..

i have two terrible cats.. well one is only mildly terrible.. her name is lucyfur.. vladimir, however.. is a fucking demon.. he breaks more things than i ever thought a cat could break.. including some of my dishes, part of my laptop keyboard.. and he definitely ate a brand new pair of stilettos... weird huh?

got tattooed for jimmy's 30th birthday.. or what would have been.. i love that kid so much. he is never far from my heart.. i keep him with me everyday..


anyway.. i dont believe in lj cuts.. so... sorry for you.. but whatever.. enjoy some pictures or something!

xo
j

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because i believe he is still with me... [10 Jul 2008|11:59pm]
[ mood | nostalgic ]

and i truly believe he always will be..


my dear jimmy.. i will love and miss you always.. until we are together again.. xo snowpea.

he breaks the spell still young
awakes from out this dream of life
and leaves us sleeping
storm racked blind consumed
by phantom pale displays of grief
he slips from out this shadow land of pain
where heads grow sorrow grey
and age destroys all hope
and spirits crushed
lament and hide away

but wordless watch the soft sky smile
and breathless hear the low wind sigh
"what death may join no more let life divide"

"dream yourself awake" he calls
"eternity awaits us all
open your eyes and be with me
be with me... "

he breaks the chains still young
dispels the hateful shades of treacherous time
and leaves us sleeping
tortured mute
devoured by ghostly shapes of life
he slips from ties of dust
to be the world we dream he lives
a part of everything we feel
the young and beautiful
and brave of heart

but wordless watch the soft sky smile
and breathless hear the low wind sigh
"what death may join no more let life divide"

"dream yourself awake" he calls
"eternity awaits us all
open your eyes and be with me
be with me... "
"dream yourself awake" he calls
"eternity awaits us all
open your eyes and be with me
forever... "

r.smith.

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i should be sleeping [25 Mar 2008|06:30am]
[ mood | tired ]

but the lack of my cuddle monster and good night kisses has me wide awake.. i was up for 24 hours yesterday.. falling asleep at 930 am.. and waking up at 430pm.. dinner with the boys and then nap time for sure.. finally started driving to south florida at nearly 10pm.. i ended up in south florida at around 230 am.. met cheryl at the diner and then ended up back at the house at almost 4.. its almost 7 am now.. and i am still not asleep...

i miss bubba... even he is asleep at this hour :(

goodnight xo

ps.. here are some new things to look at.. and one not so new..







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she's alive... [25 Mar 2008|03:51am]
[ mood | grateful ]

Well... 115 weeks later...

I was reminded earlier tonight, during a crucial cuddling session, that I even still had this...

The drive from orlando to ft. Lauderdale is long.. So I may as well update this thing...

I've spent the past 12 days on the best vacation of my life.. Jacksonville, orlando, raleigh, richmond... secret lives, earth crisis, bury your dead, emmure, the warriors... cheryl, bubba, brien, the orlando crew, danny lauren alanna and babycakes, myke amir and bubble, mr chris and garrett, julie my princess, thomas and myra, all my new friends... lots of vegan food.. I'm sure I've put on a few pounds... some serious naptime cuddling.. Lots and lots of pictures!!

I seriously love my life...

Work tomorrow... :( the flo tonight :)

I miss orlando already.

Baby j

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sunny south florida.. [15 Nov 2005|10:51am]
[ mood | anxious ]

i told you i was still alive...

here are pictures to prove it

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she's not dead, yet [05 Nov 2005|12:27pm]
just to let you know..i'm not dead..im alive and well in south florida <3

you should mail me sweet care packages

jayme a.
1515 E. Commercial Blvd.
Ft. Lauderdale, FL 33334
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please help! [06 Oct 2005|08:05pm]
[ mood | nervous ]

http://search.ebay.com/_W0QQsassZxadorablexQQhtZ-1

shoes clothing accessories and MORE!!

shipping prices are listed in item description..

i have less than one month to get to my new job in sunny florida...

please help, repost if you have to, or tell a friend..most stuff will be added daily..consider it my moving sale!!!

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danielle skrocki [22 Sep 2005|11:36am]
danielle motherfuckin skrocki!!

i fucking totally adore you and this package made my fucking year <3 i owe you mega huge and you will be repaid..ps come to florida <33333

i fucking love you boo
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JAYME's MOVING SALE [14 Sep 2005|10:26pm]
BUY THIS STUFF..tell all your friends....

i gotta move and i can't take it all with me...

Lord of the Rings action figures
Barbies
CLOTHING SHOES AND ACCESSORIES!!

and more!!!

spread the word....please i need this

http://search.ebay.com/_W0QQsassZxadorablexQQhtZ-1
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FOR SALE!!! [12 Sep 2005|11:14am]
THESE ARE ALL BLACK PHOENIX ALCHEMY LAB OILS

I have to fly out to Florida for a job interview and I need to come up with some extra money ASAP

I dont have much to sell but here's the skinny!

5ML MAKE AN OFFER
O SOLD!!!
Hexennacht

Both at about 95% full. Only tried once or twice. The scents do not work with me.

IMPS $3.00
Bloodlust
Alecto
Rapture pending for a miss jenn frye <3
Scherezade
Darkness SOLD!!!
Blood Lotus
Seraglio
Scarecrow SOLD!!!
The Apothecary SOLD!!!

Please let me know if you are interested in purchasing any of these.

xwhorrorx@hotmail.com email
xhailmaryx@hotmail.com paypall

Thanks in advance
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please help!!!! [12 Sep 2005|09:19am]
please help jayme get to florida.. i have a job interview there and need to book a flight for Ft Lauderdale leaving Raleigh NC on September 18 returning on September 20. something as cheap as possible...

ooooooor send money here because you love me and want me to move to florida

xhailmaryx@hotmail.com paypal <3
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moving sale [08 Sep 2005|05:33pm]
i am moving.. its true..and i am going to be selling a lot of stuff i'd never even dreamt of selling before...

i dont have pictures or anything yet, but here goes a list of things you can keep your eyes peeled for!!

limited edition barbies
limited edition lord of the rings action figures and more!
black phoenix alchemy lab imps and 5ml. fragrances
lots of clothing and shoes, also belt buckles and jewelry of all sorts
books, dvds, cds,
and other goodies i happen to come across while packing..

oh yeah and did i mention MY WEDDING DRESS..that fabulous ball of red and black goodness will be sold....

please let me know if there is something you might be curious about it will all be up on ebay in due time
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:( [21 Aug 2005|10:49am]
i guess that me and one of my very favorite people ever are no longer speaking..this makes me really terribly sad.. all i wanted was respect concerning someone that means a lot to me..and apparently that was too much to ask for...this person (the one things are a mess with) was totally amazing to me and did more for me than most of the people i know.. thats why it makes this especially hard.. i really care about this person, even still..and i am sad to see them leave my life.. honestly deep down i hope they arent leaving my life entirely because that would be one of the worst things that could happen..i just need to know that the respect i give toward the way that person lives their life can be reciprocated toward the way i live and the company i keep..

i haven't ever in my life met someone who cared so deeply about where i was going with my life and how i was going about getting there.. i need someone like that in my life.. there are a lot of differences between the two of us but i am pretty sure that we needed each other.. just to balance things and make things right..

i did not want things to end over the phone or computer even thats how it happened..i would have liked us to have had the opportunity to see each other one last time before ending everything.. that would have been for the best i am certain..unfortunately things dont always happen the way you want them to..

i am hoping that things will cool down enough soon that we can talk again.. i really want to see this person one last time before we end up never speaking again.. which again i say, i dont want this person out of my life entirely but thats not really up to me at this point..

if you respect me, i will in turn respect you..thats what relationships are about.. trust and respect..

i hope that he reads this..and maybe can understand a little more where i am coming from..i hope he realizes that i do in fact love him.. those are strong words and i might regret saying them but at this point i do not.. he's been there for me and done more for me than any other person i can think of right now.. tcb <3
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[16 Aug 2005|02:37pm]
ending sooooooon <3 all ending today http://search.ebay.com/_W0QQsassZxadorablex
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richmond here i come [10 Aug 2005|12:12pm]
i am going to richmond this weekend.. its a much needed break from whats going on in my life right now.. i am going to be the happiest i've been in weeks.. thank god..

i was sad to see something important to me end yesterday.. very sad.. but there isn't anything i can do about it now :( <33 i still care deeply and maybe one day things wont be so bad anymore

got some pretty shitty news at the doctor.. its knocked me down quite a bit.. and right now i'm at a pretty low point in my life.. i'm not really sure how to shake it at this point...

i guess we will see down the road...
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ebay fuckers [09 Aug 2005|08:44pm]
http://search.ebay.com/_W0QQsassZxadorablex

buy this shit from me please so i can have lots of money to pay everyone back the money i owe them, i can send home boy's movies and computer software back and i can get on with the rest of my shitty pathetic life..

thanks..goodnight
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anonymous posts are for cowards [07 Aug 2005|12:04am]
IF YOU HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY, DONT HIDE BEHIND A COMPUTER, SAY IT TO MY FACE THANKS

Anonymous)
2005-08-04 18:19

Someone wrote,
you are unattractive and unoriginal.
and horribly horribly vain.

(Anonymous)
2005-07-07 07:24

Someone wrote,
everything you do is phony and cheesy.
and all of these assholes further inflate your ridiculous ego.

(Anonymous)
2005-07-07 07:26

Someone wrote,
there is nothing more to you than appearance.
=you love taking pics of yourself.
get a personality.
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